Practice 26

Practice 26: God-Self Activation

“There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”

~ Albert Einstein

Once you’ve had the experience of realizing you are God, the difficulty now becomes holding on to that level of consciousness in your day-to-day. Your experience isn’t that you’re JUST God-head of course, as you are still bound to Earth to live by a set of God-Self-imposed rules and limitations and reconciling those two realities creates its own unique subset of challenges.

First there is the problem of maintaining elevated consciousness. 

Under human rules, you don’t have access to a button you can press that immediately sends you into the higher states of consciousness that are required to live fully in the reality of God-Self Realization. You’ve got to use a seemingly magical blend of many things together, including feminine surrender and masculine will energy to keep awakening spiraling upward. And there are a lot of contraptions you’ve built into the game to get you to go back to sleep.

Society doesn’t venerate those who can access or wish to access their higher states of being, so you’ve got society's antagonism to contend with. You’ve got your ego’s design—that wants to keep you at lower-levels of consciousness by using its incredibly tricky and insidious mechanisms to get you lost in its world once again. You’ve got your own selfishness, constantly making requests for your allocating resources and circumstances that influence you to prioritize your personal survival and comfort over the more daring work of letting go of attachments, expanding awareness, and loving unconditionally. These are some of the big ones, but there are many, many things standing in your way of living in heaven on Earth and you’ve got to use everything you’ve learned in the journey so far in order to stay diligently awake.

It’s easy to get lost down the track of ‘doing’ to attempt to get back into ascension, as most everything in the material world requires a form of doing to make progress. And while certain ‘doings’ like meditation, Yoga, and movement practices are doings that take you toward ascension, ultimately they are just maps of the territory. The territory they are all pointing to is the quality of your ‘being.’

Raising your vibration, your consciousness, doesn’t come from things like doing random acts of kindness. It comes from who you become by doing things like meditation or random acts of kindness. This is the key not to lose sight of. You can wander down the yellow brick road of ‘doing’ for many many miles before you realize that big heart, that knowledge, that courage you were desiring—in another, in an activity, in travel, in a certain relationship, in having a family, etc.—was with you all along. It was there overlooked in the quality of your ‘being’ that took the form of your ruby red slippers that you thought were just another thing to take for granted. You were focused outward again, not inward.

Second, there’s the problem of becoming love. Which is ultimately also consciousness.

“The kingdom of God is within you” (Luke 17:21, KJV)

Your ability to experience this Kingdom of God has everything to do with your understanding of your responsibility. We often take on the responsibilities of the world, of others obligations, of what duties we believe need to get done, of getting our desires met, and by doing so we neglect to realize that these are just aspects of the illusion that are trying to point to your inner work of self-love realization. Your primary realm of responsibility in raising your consciousness is to become love by prioritizing what love would have you become.

Self-love, the latest realization of the spiritual self-help movement, means something completely different when you’ve realized you are everything that exists. You have realized that you have a local-self of human realities, which have their own difficulties in love-actualizing (subconscious, shadow, ego, trauma, fear, attachments, etc.) and you have your truer, non-local Self to love that is existentially challenging to grasp.

How does one even go about loving all that is, in all the Self?

Using the simple method of expanding consciousness I laid out on the previous teaching is very important to understand, utilize, and master. The next vital aspect for you to realize is working with your selfishness vs. self-lessness on a regular basis. 

Self-bias:

Identified as ego-self, you bias the world in a myriad of ways that align with what this limited, finite-self views as good or bad for its own sense of survival. What threatens its survival is ‘bad’ and what extends its survival is often the ‘good,’ but what about the truth of the True Self?

Is murder bad in God’s view, or does God love murder too? Was Hitler evil in God’s view and thus was punished punitively or does God love Hitler and Jesus equally, indiscriminately? The truth, which may or may not be shocking to you depending on the quality of your spiritual work, is that the latter in both cases is more true. Playing as if you aren’t God for a second to make a point: God loves everything indiscriminately (unconditionally), that means it does not discriminate how much love is offered based on what that someone did when God imagined itself as whatever being in the dream of thingness that it became. You see the point here? There is no objective reality of good and bad, right and wrong, and most of the moralizations you’ve constructed about the world are based on your more limited terrain of consciousness and ego development self-bias. You’ve created a morality based on what your ego has determined has benefitted its view (or collective ego-identity) of its own survival in the world (self-concept and physical body survival) and doesn’t want to accept the goodness of things that happen outside of its selfish categories. If you want to remain as God-Self, you have to abandon most all self-bias and embrace the true morality of God—all experience is valuable and acceptable as it is by virtue of it simply existing. Can you become that big?

Selfishness:

Selfishness can be simply summarized as “wanting things to go the way you want, and not any other way.” Your selfishness is made manifest countless times a day, and some of it is necessary, such as eating, drinking, and wiping your ass, but most of it is unnecessary and based on your ego’s preference to maintain its self-concept. For example, how willing are you to go to a grocery store right now and do something that would make you look completely stupid and would mortify you to the core? Let’s say something like, taking a dump right in the middle of an aisle for example. Most of us would say absolutely not?! But have you ever taken the time to dissect why? I challenge you to do so, and what you will likely find is that the fear you have of possibly appearing that way to a group of total random strangers is too great to even approach doing something that frankly wouldn’t harm anyone. There’s no objective reason why you couldn’t just crap on the floor. Your ego-self concept is simply too afraid of losing its control over its ability to get you to identify with who it wants you to believe yourself to be (smart, sane, respectable, etc.). It doesn’t matter if you actually are those things, the point is the ego is making sure others see you the way you want to be seen. Most of how the ego does this isn’t on the scale of crapping in grocery stores, so scale this idea down to your daily social interactions to see its truly insidious impact over your sense of well-being. Seek to see how much activity goes into maintaining your self concept day-to-day to keep you from feeling embarrassed, ashamed, idiotic, fearful, etc. It’s quite eye-opening.

Fear is how your ego keeps you within its realm of control and selfishness is its tool of getting you to lower your vibrational consciousness when things don’t go your way. The truth is, if things didn’t go your way they likely went another being’s way. Is that a bad thing? And if you weren’t so selfishly tethered to your ego’s survival strategies, you would realize that you are all beings and the universe is set up to maximize the benefit of all beings considered, not just the local you. That’s divinity.

Sometimes it’s a zero sum game though—something doesn’t go the way you wanted and no one benefits while you believe you missed out on something that was probably more important to your separate-self-concept than it was to your actual physical survival or enlightenment. So next time you feel anger or upset that something didn’t go the way you wanted, it doesn't matter if it’s a big or small thing, think about how much it truly matters in the story of your entire life compared to how satisfied your ego is that it got you to lower your vibration over what was likely a trivial pursuit. Reality is a game after all, and you are the hero and the villain.

Selflessness:

Selflessness isn't commonly experienced in the Western world, as we tend to promote selfishness and materialistic manifestation culture as proper paths to ‘the good life.’ We can view a dimension of selflessness as meaning the opposite of selfishness, which can look like acts of heroism or Christ-like self-sacrificial behavior of putting others before yourself. The danger with this though is how the ego can easily co-opt this position and make it into a new costume for the ego to act in ways it has conceptualized as ‘good’ but are ultimately draining to your authenticity and self-worth because heroic actions stemming from ego come from an already empty cup. So the better way to see how Christ modeled selflessness is to see it from the perspective of his having gone beyond needing to satisfy the selfish desires dictated by the ego, by fully realizing there is no separate self at all.

If you’re bought into identifying as the separate self, you will feel/believe there is something you lack, this will cause suffering and naturally there will be a desire for the thing you believe you lack. This is just the byproduct of not truly seating yourself as one with the entire dance of life, and instead you are identified as a biological being with needs and fears about how those needs will be fulfilled. Your putting your perceived self-problems into your foreground distances you from truly identifying as the self-less God that doesn’t let its own illusions of survival get in its way of perceiving the joyful experience of beingness. Perceived illusory selfish needs, preferences, and desires that only take the human ‘you’ into account and exclude considering the total harmony of the True Self, are the clouds that block the glowing sun of your radiant love. 

The most efficient and perhaps effective path to selflessness realization is by achieving self-mastery through self-actualization. When you are sufficiently self-actualized, you stand more of a chance at being capable of transcending rather than identifying with the false self. You understand what it has to offer (think Satan offering Jesus the whole world) and you’re less pulled into being enticed by its offerings. Love becomes seemingly the only next enticing adventure.

Self-love (becoming a love big enough to accept/embrace your totality) is the highest teaching, and is the fundamental reason you imagined yourself into this human life, and all the rest of reality. It is the only way to elevate your consciousness to a point of purity that makes your enlightenment possible, and can only be realized in its ultimate unconditional form by setting aside your selfishness and self-bias and by becoming truly selfless. The nothingness that loves the everything it has imagined.